Monday, July 28, 2008

Slow busy summer...

Hey guys! Not much new to report really. Still getting short sweet emails from the kids occasionally. We were getting short ones every day for about 4 days in a row last week. But we haven't gotten another one since Friday I think, so maybe they're at camp again or just not getting access to a computer. I'm still particularly grateful that we hear from them. I know a lot of families don't get to hear from their kids at all during this wait. Mostly because most of the kids are younger, so they don't do email and stuff yet.

I got the new site up for the agency. I'm still writing some of the pages and getting info from some of the other families, but the waiting children is the most important part and that is up to date. The website, if any of you want to see it, is www.adoptconnection.com. I submitted it to search engines already, too. So I hope to see some of the other kids getting adopted.

The agency may be coming out with a new program soon, too. Diana (owner of the agency) went to Nicaragua last week to work out a international adoption program with them. I haven't heard the final report, yet, but if they end up allowing pictures the way Estonia does, they will be on the new site, too. I won't hold my breath... photo listings like Estonia's are extremely rare. Most countries don't allow public pictures at all.

That's all that's going on right now. Still no court document or court date. A lady named Viola, and her husband, went to preview a little boy last week and they were told to expect a late Sept. court date, so we hope that means we still have reason to expect Sept. also. Their boy is in Tallinn as well. We really hope we'll all be there at the same time. That would be fun for us all to be there for court together. More people who speak English! And we'll get to meet all their kids. There are 3 other families we have personally talked to who are hoping for September, including Viola.

More as we hear it, as always!
Love,
Molly

Monday, July 21, 2008

Sites and sounds

Got a new email from the kids today. It said something like "We greatly love you. We want you more quickly come to take us to America."

Just thought I'd share. :)

Nothing else new today really. We have three howling dogs this week that are all keeping me entertained. Occasionally they all howl at the same time like they're singing. Usually the dogs being noisy is annoying but in this case it's hilarious. Usually it's right when I should be getting up, so at least I wake up laughing. One of them (the Basset Hound) howls and then snorts, then howls and snorts. Sooo funny.

I'm helping the agency with a new website, which is fun. They need more traffic to the Estonian program to get some of these other kids (particularly the older kids and the boys) adopted. I get to put travel tips, info on Estonia and the adoption program, and the photo listing on there, and help keep it updated. Which means I'll be one of the first to hear about new kids or status changes on any of the kids available! Fun! I'm working on it but I'll let you all know when it's pretty much done.

I also offered to re-format their documents, like their dossier checklists and things that could look more structured and include more details and explanations. That will keep them from getting the same questions from new people over and over - the same questions I had to ask! But I love doing stuff like that, when I have time. I get joy out of providing information and assistance that I wish I had when I went through it. It's almost like doing it all over, but with foreknowledge that I didn't get to benefit from!

All for now! More soon I hope.
Love,
Molly

Thursday, July 17, 2008

No worries today.

Today was actually a really good day, news-wise! Woohoo! It's about time! First, after waking up from the basset hound we're watching saying "booowww! Bowwww!", I checked my phone and there was a new email from the kids. We had trouble translating it at first, so we asked Diana (agency lady) to help. Our email to them was about how we were waiting anxiously for the court date, and we are told it will probably be in September, and we hope it is as soon as possible. They wrote back: "When there will be a court date, write us a letter. We will wait. We love you."

So that was nice!

Oh wait, before that happened - last night I spent nearly 2 hours total on the phone with Shelley - the social worker who works for the agency (and coincidentally lives in PA); and then with Barbara, the other primary person at the agency. They advised me not to talk to that other family, which I told them I wasn't planning to anyway. I didn't want to. They said there is no way they can disrupt anything or cause any trouble for anyone but themselves. It is impossible to adopt from Estonia from the US without approval from the agency, and in addition to that - no judge would approve their adoption of our kids because apparently - Shelley said she was under the impression that our kids actually SAID they don't want to be adopted by those people! We didn't know that. So when I talked to Barbara, I asked her if that was true. She said yes, and that the orphanage asks kids (over a certain age) after a preview if they want to be adopted by the family that visited them. If they say no, they don't let the family proceed with adopting those kids. So naturally my next question was - so did they SAY they definitely want US to adopt them? Yes, they did. In fact, they told Igor, they told the orphanage, and they signed a paper saying such.

That was really good to know. I'm glad we didn't know before the preview, though, or we might have acted differently, nervous that THEY could fire US! LOL But even when we had to discipline them or tell them no a bunch of times, they still truly wanted us to be their parents.

After talking to Shelley, I promised to email her pictures from the trip. This morning she wrote back and said "What a beautiful family! Thanks for sharing the pictures. I looked at them over and over because the smiles on the kids faces is what makes my job worthwhile. Things in Europe slow down over the summer but I know that Diana and Barbara are doing everything possible to see that your children are at home with you, where they belong, as soon as possible."

Barbara also shared a lot of other good information with me, too much to type. Mostly about other people and their experiences. We also talked about me helping them with some website stuff and document formatting, which I love the idea of. Maybe there could be another website created by Molly for you guys to see, soon!

OK so back to today. We get home from service and SHOCKER! guess what we find? A letter in the mailbox from Tallinn. We thought it would never happen! (<---Said in my head like Mrs. Bennett in Pride and Prejudice, British accent of course.) There was a letter from each of them, handwritten in Russian, along with little drawings of the 4 of us next to a house and a heart that says "I love you." Along with each letter was a typed out translation (I assume was provided by Igor. How NICE!!!) with a photo of them on each translation printout.












In our letters to them, up to this point, we've talked about the family (all the aunts, uncles, grandparents, cousins, etc. that they would have); we talked about the beach and asked if they've ever swam in the ocean before; we sent them shoes (translates "boots") and a photo album of pictures from our visit with them. We also asked them how they are and what they've been up to since we saw them. Here is what they said:

Hello, Mum and Dad!
It was impossible to answer you immediately, because we were in a camp, it's 150km from Tallinn. When we returned we got your packet at the post office. Thank you very much for the presents, I liked it all! Boots fitted, but I do not wear it now, because I am going to put them on in September, when I go to school. The album with the photos is very beautiful. When I read your letter, I felt very sad. Roman and I miss you very much.
We want as soon as possible to meet our aunts and uncles, grandmothers and grandfather. We love them by now.
This year summer is not very warm here, often rains, that's why sea is cold. We can't swim there.
Write letters, we will very wait. I love you very very much!
Katya

Hello, Mum and Dad!
I am waiting when you come and take us with you to America. I want Daddy to teach me taking photos as well as he does. It seems that in all photos I look like my Mum and Katya looks like Dad. I would like to play football in America, because here I have been playing football for 2 years already.
I am also dreaming of seeing ocean and swimming in it. I have never seen ocean, because I didn't go abroad. I hope that in America good life and friendly family are waiting for us.
Recently we returned from the camp where we played and had fun, every evening we were dancing at the disco. There was a very beautiful lake near the camp, but water was cold, so we didn't swim there.
I like it very much that we will have a big family, I want as to see and meet our relatives as soon as possible.
Waiting for your letters.
I love you very much!!!
Roman

So today was a much better day than the last two. We hope the good news keeps on coming!
I'll keep you all posted, as always.
Love,
Molly

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Actually I'd rather have NOTHING new to report.

First to answer some questions:
We found out about all this from Patti, the person who adopted Oksana (who was a little girl from the same group our kids are in). Patti met the other family when she was there for her court date in November. That's when they previewed our kids.

After I talked to Patti, I called the agency to make sure they knew that the other family was possibly fighting the disqualification. The agency is the one that told me that the family had tried to go over their head, so yes they did know that. They knew what was going on.

I can't say much more about it on here, because quite honestly at this point I don't know if it's possible if the other family might be aware of this blog.

This morning while we were meeting for service, I got an email (read it on my phone) from Patti saying that if we want to talk to that other family, they are willing to talk to us. I almost started hyperventilating. Does that mean they WANT to talk to us?! What could they possibly want to say? I'm not a confrontational person, in the first place, I don't like talking to people about personal things and not knowing what their motives and intentions are or what they might say, and I don't know that it will help any of us through this difficult time. I am mildly curious about what they would want to say to us, but it makes me panic at the thought. I could understand not being able to handle being disqualified after meeting the kids, and that never should have happened. The agency, whether trying to be nice or not, should have never allowed that. I would be upset and angry and grasping at straws if I were them. No one accepts rejection well, and in most cases it probably feels unjustified to the person rejected.

But the facts are that no matter how much they liked the kids when they met them (I'm sure they did); I have a pretty confirmed reason to believe that the kids are much more active than would be compatible for parents who won't run around with them full speed for hours, go down water slides with them, etc. Nothing against other parents that these kids could have had, but these kids DON'T want to be supervised when they are playing. They want to be played with. That's one of the reasons we love them and they are so perfect for us. Compatibility was not something lacking at all with the 4 of us (and not just with play). And the kids were quite obviously aware of it.

So this is probably yet another thing that "never happens" that is happening to US! If the kids were anything short of fantastic, I would regret ever beginning this adoption process. It's really not fair that (after all this time of weird delays in spite of our unusually ideal circumstances for adopted kids) not only are we getting no news lately - we're getting upsetting news now!

Does the adoption universe have some kind of advance knowledge of my ability to handle stress and is trying to push it to the limit?! LOL

Love,
Molly

PS- we heard that the family in Texas, Stephanie, who adopted two girls from our kids' group in June, got the girls home and are adjusting very well. I'm happy for them. They are a nice family and the girls are very sweet. Katya is good friends with them.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Mine mine mine!

No new email from the kids yet this week. We think they might be at camp right now anyway. So we probably won't hear from them again for a little while.

Not really any news except that work is finally slowing down to a regular pace again. It was soooo busy around the holiday weekend with people going away and needing us to watch their dogs. Now we just have two dogs - one we're watching and one we're training. So it's more tolerable! We're both pioneering this month too so it's really busy with that also!

We found out today that the previous family who visited our kids is still having a fit that they were disqualified and are trying to fight it. They went over the agency's head to Estonia and it didn't work. It's the agency's job to accept or reject families... That's why they have the accreditation and stuff from the Estonian government. So there's nothing they can do, but it's still upsetting! It's kind of like finding out that a crazy ex-girlfriend is after your husband. You know it won't work, but you still wish they'd stop trying to break you up and steal your spouse!

I don't know why we can't get many breaks with the adoption process. We're really grateful for the things that have worked out - finding Estonia and finding the kids. We love them so much and the trouble is worth getting them home with us, but it seems like it's just our luck that our kids are the ones that another family is trying to fight over! It just adds to the stress during our wait.

Jason pointed out that we've already had like 4 things happen to us with the adoption process that "never happen". 1- having a home study that takes 9 months to get because our SW quit, 2- having our USCIS approval take 15 weeks to get total, part of that because of #3- the SW misspelling our name and setting us back with USCIS approval and 4- choosing kids who have had been previewed by another family that was later disqualified and still wanting our kids!!!

We're due a big break. A quick court date perhaps? PLEASE adoption universe?!?!

Maybe our big break is just the only one we've had all along - amazing kids who are perfect for us.

Love,
Molly

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Typed too soon.

Last night two more emails came through that were sent at the same time as the one we received yesterday morning. One of them had a word we couldn't understand so we're not sure what it said. The other was in response to one of our emails that said "Make sure you are good and don't get into any trouble!" Their response was " привет унас все хорощо
мы вас любим!!!!!!!!" which means "Hi we are all good. We love you!!!"

So, naturally, that made us feel better. It was a tougher sentence to write, complete with a couple misspellings. But we still knew what it said, and meant that there was more effort to write something with substance than we initially thought they had made. And getting the "we love you" again is always nice. Much better than one email that just says "Yes". :)

Just wanted to share!

They are probably at camp again so we may not hear from them for a couple weeks. We'll see. Keep praying that we get that stinking court paper soon. That's what we need now!

Love,
Molly

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Reassuringly unassured.

Not much going on lately... We got another email from the kids this morning, but it was only a one word answer (da = yes), in response to whether they liked the pictures we sent them from the trip. It can be a little disappointing at times that they don't say more in their emails, because they are capable of it, and we know they probably spend much of their internet time on limpa.ru website, posting comments at length to who-knows-who on there. Especially after the long letters we take the time to handwrite and send with a printed translation. Jason already worries that the kids won't be "the way they were" by the time we see them again, and the short emails make that worry worse. That they'll somehow get so much older than 4-6 months older, over the course of 4-6 months. Especially Katya, now being 12 years old. He's worried that by the time she gets here she will be less interested in family and more interested in telephones and parties. I don't think I discovered telephones and parties till I was a little older. And still, she has to learn English and make friends in order for that to happen. It seems, though, that even though there are valid bright sides to adopting older kids - we may already be upset that they are growing up so fast. And they aren't even here yet!

I don't worry really that they will be that much different when we see them. After all, their life's purpose over the last 5 years has been to join a family. I don't think that them not wanting to play tag and get piggy back rides anymore will be the adjustment we have to make, or that they have to make. My biggest concerns have to do with getting them used to the rules here. Like they won't be allowed on limpa.ru anymore. There are bad pictures on there, and mostly - we can't do our job as supervising what's going on on there because we can't read it! It's all Russian. They will not like, and not understand, that rule. I'm sure there will be times they think that "these parents are MEAN"... That's what I'm concerned about... They will have these very important rules enforced right from the start -before we can get them used to trusting that we know what's best and it's for their protection. I don't worry whether they will want to play UNO with their parents sometimes. I think the rules are important for their adjustment, but they won't understand them and we can't explain them that well at first.

But I guess that's why Jason and I work well together. We rarely worry about the same things.

Anyway, I am glad that we get emails from them at all. If they were younger we wouldn't hear that they were even alive and well because they would have no ability to contact us. And I also believe that it is more important for them to be reassured of how much we care about them, than for us to be reassured. They, after all, are the ones that have had to be accepted or rejected; and have been rejected more than accepted.

I very often think back to how I was at that age, and my relationship with my parents. As much as I am so proud of my parents and how they raised me, I'm sure that I got more reassurance from them of their love than I gave them. That is what makes me think that this is the job of the parent. To give more than I'll get back sometimes.

I'll keep you all posted on anything interesting that happens, of course. Stay tuned!

Love,
Molly

PS- I got to see Tabitha and Jeff yesterday!!! Woohoo! They were in NJ for the ASL district convention. They are doing pretty well. They, too, said that the kids look like they could be OUR kids. We don't see any resemblance, but take it as a compliment when we hear it!